Sav on Saturday

So I've read this passage in Matthew, like, a million times before, but it really hit me this week.

Matthew 11: 28-30

"Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you'll recover your life. I'll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me - watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won't lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you'll learn to live freely and lightly."

Isn't that amazing?! How I wish I were better at keeping Jesus' company. I tend to get so caught up with myself and my troubles that I forget that a better life is available to me. Jesus came to bring freedom, true freedom, yet I seem to have developed a fondness for slavery. It sickens me on some level, my twisted nature, but I can't seem to want a better life, a life that God can give me.

It's like, I'm addicted to frustration, anger, depression, anxiety, and a hopeless life. What sort of person finds comfort in such misery rather than in the arms of her Savior? Yet on some level, don't we all do that? Don't we shun the "unforced rhythms of grace" in favor of the familiarity of life without God? So anyways, that's what I've been thinking about.

This week has been a mix. I went to the college small group at my parents' church. Although I scratched beforehand because I was super nervous, it turned out to be a good experience. The theme was community and sharing, so we all told our testimonies. I enjoyed it. Other than that, and a few highlights of friends visiting me, it was another rough week. Whatever. Next week's a new beginning.

Miss and love you all!